fuck i love you miss florence.
Monday, 3 October 2011
Sunday, 2 October 2011
acceptance.
a great way of encouraging all the best parts of you to shine through,
a great way of stimulating of your own acceptance of who you are and where you fit;
is to surround yourself with good friends whose diverse characters and skills have led them through equally diverse places and positions and experiences,
...to remind yourself that the entire notion of 'normality' is utter bullshit, and that happiness is everywhere you care to look for it.
everything is going to be ok. it's easier to remind yourself of this when your friends are supportive, and not competitive.
a great way of stimulating of your own acceptance of who you are and where you fit;
is to surround yourself with good friends whose diverse characters and skills have led them through equally diverse places and positions and experiences,
...to remind yourself that the entire notion of 'normality' is utter bullshit, and that happiness is everywhere you care to look for it.
everything is going to be ok. it's easier to remind yourself of this when your friends are supportive, and not competitive.
Tuesday, 27 September 2011
touch.
Close my eyes and move backwards from them into myself.
Touch you so intently that I become my fingertips.
I forget where the rest of my body is when it’s not touching you.
I am whispering to you with my fingertips and you are listening with your skin. Intently.
‘Yes’.
I am pushing the affirmation so far forward the words are tripping over themselves in such a rush to be heard by you.
We are so close I can hear your eyelashes disturb the air. I am jealous of it.
Monday, 26 September 2011
Sunday, 25 September 2011
Wednesday, 21 September 2011
rushed.
a couple of years ago, i was lucky enough to get away from just about every part of the world that i was familiar with (ok, except for the english language) and find myself living in the homes of some inspiring people whilst i worked with them on whatever projects they had going. these projects included, but were not limited to: rescuing tropical birds from orchard netting, ripping up parasitic plants from their non-native soils, tending generous vegetable gardens, walking escaped ponies home along winding roads at 5AM, teaching english to french, korean, japanese and belgian people and building kangaroo-proof fencing.
while i took the time to complete said projects, i also used the time to think. i think a lot already, i know this. but having the time and space to think in a completely new and unfamiliar framework, surrounded by people who i didn't know and who didn't know me, let me rebuild a lot of my preformed opinions and interpretations.
as the time between this period of rejuvenation (of myself, and of several over-grown gardens) and 'now' gets longer, i can feel those vital thought processes and conclusions slipping away. they don't feel relevant anymore.
it's so easy to get tied up in the now. there are so few occasions these days when i feel i am in control of my feelings and my fears. though i was able to take that time, so long ago now, to regroup and to reassess my attitudes, the lessons i taught myself are getting forgotten. i feel as though every day, i am standing in a hole, and all this dirt keeps getting shoveled in on top of me. i keep forgetting to step up, and so i am slowly getting buried.
it's sad to think that the only way i can regain control of my thoughts and my well-being is by going on holiday, and physically removing myself from the world i have come to associate with negativity. i can't afford (financially and temporally) to go travelling for months at a time every time i start to feel inundated with pressures. which are going to be coming fast and lose from now until the day i die.
i need to start to be able to channel all my lessons and my love into a place where they can be addressed and taken care of, properly, or i'll sink. i am hoping that by moving closer to some old freinds, i'll find that place.
while i took the time to complete said projects, i also used the time to think. i think a lot already, i know this. but having the time and space to think in a completely new and unfamiliar framework, surrounded by people who i didn't know and who didn't know me, let me rebuild a lot of my preformed opinions and interpretations.
as the time between this period of rejuvenation (of myself, and of several over-grown gardens) and 'now' gets longer, i can feel those vital thought processes and conclusions slipping away. they don't feel relevant anymore.
it's so easy to get tied up in the now. there are so few occasions these days when i feel i am in control of my feelings and my fears. though i was able to take that time, so long ago now, to regroup and to reassess my attitudes, the lessons i taught myself are getting forgotten. i feel as though every day, i am standing in a hole, and all this dirt keeps getting shoveled in on top of me. i keep forgetting to step up, and so i am slowly getting buried.
it's sad to think that the only way i can regain control of my thoughts and my well-being is by going on holiday, and physically removing myself from the world i have come to associate with negativity. i can't afford (financially and temporally) to go travelling for months at a time every time i start to feel inundated with pressures. which are going to be coming fast and lose from now until the day i die.
i need to start to be able to channel all my lessons and my love into a place where they can be addressed and taken care of, properly, or i'll sink. i am hoping that by moving closer to some old freinds, i'll find that place.
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