real life.

first time applying for a real life job. though it's not paid. so maybe it's not real...

anyway.

it dawned on me that i already know how this will go.

if i get it: i'll know that the position/ organisation is shit.
if i don't get it: i'll know i'm shit.

this is truly how i real about myself. and i realise that this is representative of a number of aspects of my life.

yup.